i love you

I’m sorry. I will be more patient. I will continue to try my best to not upset you with my feelings. Sometimes I think emotionally and react to that instead of logically. I wasn’t offering anything out of anger. Sometimes when you love someone you have to look out for their best interest even if it’s not what you want. Not seeing you is not what I want. It ripped me apart to text it. You went from being so sweet to me and drawing pictures for me to downright being angry at me for trying to give you whatever it is that you need from me. I took you not wanting me in a sexual way as related to what is going on with you at home and I felt very upset that those feelings could just change. I felt that because you have to have dinner with her you change how you are with me. The sex that we have is not about “sex,” it’s the closeness the openness the feeling of such passionate love, the feeling that we love each other so much…that is why I want to always be with you, not the actual act itself.
I will have bad days every once in awhile. It’s sometimes hard to believe this is all real and that you will love me forever. I’ve not had the best of luck in that department so I’m sorry if I get upset from time to time. I’ve seen you through meltdowns and tried to support you or give you space or love you…mostly all at the sametime which is typical Kelly fashion…over the top. I’ve not gotten mad at you for your feelings. I was just emotional thinking about you with her and how upset you are every single day and wondering if I wasn’t just adding to that. It’s hard to see you so sad all the time. I am so happy that we found each other and I know that you are too, I just hear you say how hard it is all the time and I feel bad. I want to make things wonderful for you. I will be patient. I’m sorry.