Spring

Little darling, I feel that ice is slowly melting
Little darling, it seems like years since it’s been clear

Here comes the sun, here comes the sun
And I say it’s all right
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun
It’s all right, it’s all right

WILL YOU BE MY GIRLFRIEND?

Be the girl that I call mine
Let me kiss your lips as much as I can
Hold my hand
Hold me close to you
Ignite sparks in every part of my body
Sing with me in the car
Walk in white sand with me
Read stories to me at night
Let me counter all your fear
Allow me in to your beautiful soul

Be my wonderful girlfriend.

All I’m listening to…

…is pearl jam. You signed into your school mail and I saw you on gchat and just stared because I’ve been told its not good to talk to you while we are going through this break up. I never meant to hurt you, I wish I were different. so instead of talking to you ill just keep listening to nothingman and corduroy.

Baby having you come here was absolutely wonderful . i loved you holding me kissing me..getting crazy on the bed! I just couldn’t stop it felt so good! This all feels like and truly is a dream come true. you are my love..my girl who i will cherish and love for as long as you will let me. Here’s our chance baby, what we have waited and fought so extremely hard for. you mean so much to me its hard to put into words. to hear you say I’m yours makes my heart go crazy…the way you were kissing me made my body go crazy..and the way you held on to me so tight while you kisser me made me feel like the luckiest girl in the world to have found you. I know we were meant to be. I’m so excited to see where this little ball of light takes us. i love you sweetheart

I had so much fun with these guys and tanner at the park…got a ton of cute pictures . I’m hoping you will still call today i just love talking to you! I wish things were different but oh well. You said hopefully tomorrow you will see me..lets make that happen! 🙂 Ok gotta run wish you were kissing my lips right now and i really wish you wouldve been at the park with us. one more week and we will have our chance…i hope your schedule is clear that weekend because we are going to have fun! I love you and sent this from my phone so sorry if there are tons of mistakes. xoxo

Hey Good Lookin

Hey babe!!! Hope you had a great weekend! I can’t wait to see you. My mind has ran rampant with thoughts and images of you. I miss you. My body misses you too!!! Did you buy anything while shopping? Maybe some 25 cent pants that you took back an hour later?!?! 😉 ha! Can’t wait to feel you again. Hope you have a great Sunday and that little tan tan cooperates for her pictures. Wish I was there for it. Write me!!! Love you!!!

love your touch

I love you too thank you for the post. Its quite the transition we are going through lately but our future will be so amazing…i was glad you came over lastnight…i can’t believe how good you felt! Can’t wait to see you tomorrow…we should have dinner together..i just love spending time with you. I miss you and love you. tj is being really good today…got a bath too!

Love You!!!

I just wanted to tell you I love you. I loved last night and can’t wait to spend more time together. You being so close now is going to be amazing!!! I hope you have a wonderful day. Try to relax some and settle in. Even though she’s clinically crazy, I think this will be good for both of you. Give T kisses for me and I can’t wait to see you 🙂 oh, yeah….wash those sheets 😉

you have my hear

Just a quick I love you!!! I love having you as my girl and I do know it will get easier and we will soon have it the way we want it. I am just so lucky to have you and I look forward to all the many wonderful times we will have together. You have my heart! Just died laughing over me cutting off the golf cart!

i love you

I’m sorry. I will be more patient. I will continue to try my best to not upset you with my feelings. Sometimes I think emotionally and react to that instead of logically. I wasn’t offering anything out of anger. Sometimes when you love someone you have to look out for their best interest even if it’s not what you want. Not seeing you is not what I want. It ripped me apart to text it. You went from being so sweet to me and drawing pictures for me to downright being angry at me for trying to give you whatever it is that you need from me. I took you not wanting me in a sexual way as related to what is going on with you at home and I felt very upset that those feelings could just change. I felt that because you have to have dinner with her you change how you are with me. The sex that we have is not about “sex,” it’s the closeness the openness the feeling of such passionate love, the feeling that we love each other so much…that is why I want to always be with you, not the actual act itself.
I will have bad days every once in awhile. It’s sometimes hard to believe this is all real and that you will love me forever. I’ve not had the best of luck in that department so I’m sorry if I get upset from time to time. I’ve seen you through meltdowns and tried to support you or give you space or love you…mostly all at the sametime which is typical Kelly fashion…over the top. I’ve not gotten mad at you for your feelings. I was just emotional thinking about you with her and how upset you are every single day and wondering if I wasn’t just adding to that. It’s hard to see you so sad all the time. I am so happy that we found each other and I know that you are too, I just hear you say how hard it is all the time and I feel bad. I want to make things wonderful for you. I will be patient. I’m sorry.

I Feel Helpless

You are so mad or hurt or disappointed in me right now and I feel lost. I’ve not seen you like this before and it’s killing me. I’ve just been sitting here listening to pearl jam songs and drawing and my heart hurts. I have to be here for her right now because I brought her down here and broke her heart. But I chose you, I’m still choosing you and I’ll always choose you. Just be patient for me. I don’t know how to do it any differently without ripping everything to pieces. I feel helpless. You are the one I want, please just understand that and more importantly believe it. Believe that I want you and us and everything. I love you and today is just killing me. “All day staring at the ceiling making friends with shadows on my wall. All night hearing voices telling me that I should get some sleep because tomorrow might be good for something.”